Writing blogs kind-of does my head in. I don't think anyone could possibly be interested in these posts, and the low-engagement of "free-to-play" social media doesn't make me feel there's a big enough audience to even write to.
Finding direction this year has been a little tricky, I burnt out on Zanbul at the beginning of the year, totally bummed that I still have so much to do, totally wondering if anyone cares, and totally forgetting how to draw because I want to and not because I had better do it if I don't want to be homeless.
SO, I started another Tarot deck, because why not cure burnout on a long-term project with another long-term project, right? Makes sense.
After a couple of months of that, I started making little circles of art (which I believe you can see some of in the post immediately below this one) because I needed to do some art that didn't have some huge base of work it depended on sequentially, or otherwise.
On top of all this, I still get emails about the Ellis decK companion book - it's a pile of .rtf documents that may see the light of day sometime. The truth is - it will cost money to print and I basically do this and odd jobs for a living, which financially rules out the possibility of having a print run soon.
I'm struggling with my depression, which is basically like spending all of your time sharing your head with the most negative person in the world, who tells you there is no point to any of the projects, points out you never finish anything, and serves to remind you that, again, none of this is going to make you much money at all, and could possibly just cost you money.
I'm doing my best. Right now, I'm finding some peace in working on all three projects in some kind of tandem, reminding myself I DID actually finish the Ellis decK so I might be capable of finishing something else, and doing part-time work to help keep us fed and in rent.
I'm doing my best.